So...Isaac is now almost 17 months old and I am finally getting around to finishing this post. It has been a busy couple of months and I have always had the good intention but just never materialized...Enough with the 'i'm busy' blah blah blah...
Isaac,
My heart never knew a love like this until the moment that I first heard your little heartbeat, the first time that I felt you flutter in my tummy, to the first time that I saw your precious little face. You are truly the best gift that I have ever been blessed with in my life. You would think that because I am the Momma that I would be the one showing you everything however even though you are only 12 months old you have taught your Momma so much. You have taught me that it is OK to not be a perfect Mom, that you have to laugh even when the chaos is happening, and that plans are great but living in the now is far more important.
Each day is new and it is our job to live it out to the fullest. It is my true joy to see you grow into this little spit fire toddler that wants to be on the move and in EVERYTHING! Seeing the world through your innocent eyes has changed me more than you will ever know. I adore your smile, giggles, and little noises that you make. You are my precious little miracle!
xoxo, Momma
It all stated with the hope and prayer that we would conceive a little baby. Like many newly weds my brain was on a baby and the hubs mind was thinking 5 year plan. Well I guess we did meet that mark somewhere in the middle because around the 2 1/2 year mark I had given up the pressure of pursuing a family and my wonderful husband Eddie approached me and said he wanted to start our little family. By the grace and wonderful blessing of God 3 short months later we found out we were expecting Aug 2011. It is truly the best gift ever and the feeling of pure joy just illuminate my heart when I think back to that moment.
Then came 9 long months of pregnancy and I would do it all over and over again for Isaac.
The Journey is Here
Being a Momma to a one year old is just crazy. I say crazy because this entire past year you are so focused on month to month and all the little milestones along the way; then 'big 1yr old bday' then when it all passes it is crazy that you reach that point of saying, "he's 1". Of course there are plenty milestones to be had at this age too but I'm still shocked when I hear myself saying that he is 1yrs old. I started this post when he had just turned one, then resumed at 14 months...now fast forward he is almost 17 months. He is a full blown toddler that never takes a breath and I love that about him. He is into everything, on everything, and never sitting still for more than a few moments (other than when he sleeps). My verbal and chatty little guy has tripled his vocabulary and can even get some broken sentences out. Isaac's favorite words are: doggie, ball, almost, ut oh!, that, mine, agua, bebe, and of course Momma and Dada.
The Journey Continues...You think you know..but really will you ever?
So I am really starting to now know and see what a fool I was. Maybe that seems a bit harsh (even if its the truth) but it is the best way to describe what I am about to go into. I was a fool mainly because I under estimated what it takes to be a parent. It is very easy to sit back and look at other parent and pass those silent judgments in your mind about their parenting abilities. Then you become a parent yourself and your world is literally flipped inside out and upside down. The preconceived notions of what a parent is and does is far gone...you are in the trenches of parenthood. Each day brings new blessings and new challenges. Some days I feel like a superhero and victorious and others it as if I never even let the day begin before it is over. We are still going through lots of changes as a family and adapting to the unselfish lifestyle that is a must as a parent. But, I would not change my life for a minute. I know with out a doubt that being Isaac's Momma is what the Lord has called me to and I am so very lucky and blessed that I am able to shepard this little boys heart. It does not come with ease and I am still a constant work in progress. However, I know that I am up for anything along this journey!
